Insomnia

I have had varying degrees of insomnia my entire life, but never consistently like this. I'm actually still able to operate normally, sometimes better, but after a week of only 3-4 hours a sleep a day it catches up to me and I can't really function on any level. As I have mentioned here before I don't take sleeping pills so I just have to wait for the cycle to end. The problem is it feeds off itself. The less sleep I get, the less I can concentrate and perform designated tasks, which in turn stresses me out more, on top of other unrelated shit, all lead to more insomnia. I have had two weeks of this shit, with only one day that I slept 6 hours. It started out at 4.5 hours, then 4, then down to 3.5-4 and that's what I'm stuck at. I have to try and nap with my daughter during the day, but she hates naps and that's my time to get stuff done anyway, so it rarely ever happens. At night/early morning I get to the point I can't read or do anything that keeps my eyes open (hence the late night MST3k, which doesn't really help), but when I go to lay down my mind starts racing and I'm wide awake again. It's an exhaustive routine for my body and brain. So, on these days where I feel beat down in every sense of the sentiment, it's really hard for me to write anything (even stupid shit like this) because I feel like everything that bleeds from my fingertips is either nonsensical or just fucking stupid. I've hit the fucking wall, so until I get some significant sleep I'll do updates or fuck with the site, but I probably won't add a whole lot of commentary for fear of what stupid shit might spill out.


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